I cannot really explain how strange the last 3 days have been.
On Monday we had a call from the relocation agents giving us the option of shipping everything on Tuesday and Wednesday (this week!) or delaying it until after the upcoming Bank Holiday weekend. Chris and I had made the decision early on that our plan was to ship our belongings sooner rather than later, so when we eventually get to Australia and rent out a house, we are not without our 'worldly possessions' for long. This was mainly for Stanley's benefit. I felt that whilst we were still in the UK and our belongings in transit Stanley would get along just fine without the majority his toys and things....I mean who doesn't like camping at their grandparents?! I am convinced that having all his things delivered early on when we get our new house in Brisbane will help him settle in quicker, as I have no doubt that this will be a very unsettling experience for him. My main aim over the next few months, in the UK and on arriving in Australia will be to support and help Stanley settle, I just hope my parenting is up to it and will do him justice, as I know in the early days this is going to be hard for all three of us.....
So back to that phone call on Monday, like I said we agreed sooner rather than later, so Tuesday and Wednesday (today) it was and I cannot really believe it. Three nights ago we were sat at home thinking shipping would probably be delayed until next week, but here we are now, living with Chris' parents (but fear not, we will spend many a night with my parents in Bentham too!) until the day we fly to Brisbane, on Saturday 23rd June 2012.
The whole process has quickened up since the VISA's were granted - I mean they took all of 5 days to be processed and granted! Flights were booked soon after that by Chris' company. We are flying via Singapore so have a 30 hour stopover there which I am really excited about - having never been further east than Rome before! I am hoping that 2 night flights with Stanley won't be too bad; I'm lucky, he sleeps pretty well in my arms, even at the grand old age of 3 and a half :o)
The emotions I am feeling about the move are so complex and confused. I go from feeling very excited about the adventure we are embarking on, to feeling very guilty about the whole thing. I am so aware that as much as this is an amazing opportunity for us, our departure affects so many other peoples lives, namely our families. It really is very hard. This of course doesn't have to be forever, and in terms of life experience I still truly believe that for all three of us this is absolutely unbeatable, that however doesn't make this process any easier!
Thanks for reading, this post really has lived up to the blog name of 'Hamblings Ramblings'!
Lots of love, Eilidh xxx